February 2012
13 posts
I’m completely drenched in sweat on a school night, yet I don’t mind the heat one single bit. This is kinda like a job but without the pay, and while I’m at it, probably without the papers and the glory. But what makes all of this worth it is the nonstop adrenaline, the absolutely deafening sounds that engulf my eardrums on the call. I wouldn’t mind dancing for a living,...
Joyride. Villains in the reeling. Up to the skies and a roundabout to spare. When will the troubles take their win, and no that’s not question. If not tomorrow, should I wait for a millennium or is that total crap, too? That was completely rhetorical by the way, answer if you feel the need. While you’re up there, take a cower at the ceiling and the view’s lovely, I can’t...
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I need a getaway, or a well-thought collection of things I could to do inch further, if anything at all. This cold venality’s getting old, it’s getting priceless but stale, tuned out but it still stings. For two, this one should never be a keeper, it should never be in the fault like this. Pointless it may be, pointless it always has been but that doesn’t stop me dreading and...
jimmyftw asked: Will you be mine?
Domestic abuse was never accepted until Chris Brown did it. What the hell, society?
You said you’d be there for me a year later, but that was nothing but an empty promise. You didn’t foresee the kind of crap that would erupt after your stunt, you just thought it was harmless and would bring more love and attention to your life. I find myself, more than a year later, still being affected but pitying you more than anything else. You are crap. I’m imagining the...
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I feel like I should do something in college other than go to class and go home. Every now and then I imagine the small things I could do to contribute but I can’t really think of anything… There is one thing though, and I’m a bit too shy to approach it. GLASA, or pretty much the gay-straight-alliance club, seems promising, and I feel like it’d be a good step out of the...
I’ve been inactive on tumblr because… well… it’s gotten really dull and boring here. My dashboard’s always the same thing everyday, written ideas have become bleak and repetitive (including mine), and there’s none of that feedback that makes you feel good being a tumblrer~. Maybe it’s good to jot thoughts every now and then but other than that, this is...
To all the people who’ve had that kind of story where you get called ugly and hideous and middle school and become this attractive, beautiful soul that everyone loves… I’m glad you have confidence and I’m glad you’re happier with yourself. But on the contrary you can’t say “Fuck you, society,” y’know why? Because you’re right where...
January 2012
15 posts
A few randomized thoughts about the past few weeks… Hmm…
I really like my English professor. He takes things seriously without being unnecessarily strict and scary, he’s motivational and he’s real. I looked at the curriculum for the semester and I’m frightened to death, but hey, I’m also excited and looking forward to this term.
You reminded me of how I felt...
It’s another one of those problems… where there’s a person who everyone loves and adores and wishes to be friends with, but there’s just some evil little shit going on in their head. And that’s exactly what this is. You’re well liked, the popular one, the most ideal person among many? Yeah right. A fair few got to see the real side of you and the actions...
There are just a few more days of this till I do it again, but I’m not sure I wanna handle it. Just disappointment after constant disappointment, but it’s a part of the job and it’s expected. Maybe this isn’t just for me, maybe it isn’t the kind of thing I wanted to do for all my life. I hear all the time that if you love what you do, you never work a day in your...
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So much progress we’ve made, damn, I never thought we’d reach this far. To the point where we would go head to head against others for a prize in front of thousands, eye after eye, lights and cameras, the only thing missing will be the action. For yet, we’ve claimed three great claims on the stage, with cheers and impressed thumbs pointing up, I can say we’ve reached very...
I was so afraid that things were ruined by my unexcused disappearance, but we conversed like nothing ever happened. That makes me so… relieved, and content as you could probably see in between my words. Seeing these things, I should know it’s impossible because people always aren’t the way they’re expected to be… And weirdly, I was right. You never budged, you never...
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Jumping out of conversations as usual; things don’t change and that’s a given. I’ve been over it a long time ago, and I’m not sitting and waiting for things to get better because they’ll randomly fall apart again. Nope, I’m better off without it.
Anonymous asked: I'm all for ambition and chasing goals, and I'm wholeheartedly behind anyone who wishes to do so, but what if you don't have goals? What if everything is so foggy and hazy that you don't know what you want to do with your life, or how you even want to spend your time? What if what once brought you joy no longer does, and you are left stranded without any leads? I'm...
Sometimes you just can’t deny the flaws about you. Clarifying and denying doesn’t always make it okay on your side, because the focus of the matter is probably still there. It doesn’t change the fact that you did the things you did, nor does it change the fact that you are the way you are. New lesson to keep in mind, just admit it to avoid convulsions. Work on change,...
Do you ever look at someone and think “I’m never going to be successful or talented like that?” Then some random stranger in the sidelines rises up and says “Anything is possible if you set your mind to it.” Cliches are oh-so annoying but they prove right practically 50%, but anyway, it’s true. You’re looking at this person thinking you’ll never...
See the thing with New Year resolutions is… no one bothers to follow through anymore. Your goals to focus on your education rather than whistling hour after hour on tumblr, that’s probably going to fade away within 2 weeks. Or how about when the mission to lose as much weight as possible turns into mission impossible after giving into temptation when your eyes lock onto the nearest...
Haven’t written anything in a while, since last year! Aha, that sounds kinda funny don’t it? But anyway I haven’t had the need to jot my frustrations/thoughts onto tumblr anymore. On the contrary, I do feel like writing since no words have been written for such a long ass time. Hello everyone, how are you doing!
December 2011
20 posts
What’s the point of having so many close friends if you say the same things to all of them? It’s nice to hear “You’re the best friend I’ve ever had, I love you to death.” Something along those lines, it’s sentimental and all. But once you witness those words being relayed in front of others, many others, then what’s the meaning? The specialness...
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The sad news is, your life is probably not going to get any easier. If you’re still on about how childhood was a lot less difficult, you should get going and make use of your adulthood instead of mourning over what was. Wishing probably won’t do anything for ya either, because just like all wishes, you’re bringing up false hopes instead of dealing with it like the age you are....
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Somewhere along the line, the inspiration dissolved away. I thought my hands were filled with corny piles of gold dust but as I kept walking, it all slipped under the corners between my scrawny fingers. All I’m left with is excess, and really, there’s not much to go on from that. I anticipated a moment where I could excitingly flare it all up in the air like a psychopath, but...
If you can lie to a close friend and you knew it was fool-proof that you wouldn’t get caught red handed, would you? It’s not a trick question but your answer can tell a whole lot about you. Shit, you can practically go behind their whole world knowing your cruddy actions will never be revealed, but can you truly think of yourself and be happy with that? How does it feel to know...
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Blogging is great preparation for essay-writing and grammatical analysis classes, especially when you’re able to spot so many errors in your own writing. Embarrassing but constructive, right?
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Sometimes the greatest and most special things come into your life in the most unexpected of ways. Sad to say that it’s approaching a close, but I’ve been left with the sweet impression that it’s not going to end. Many things have risen because of one coulda-never-happened event, and I could think and wander in this all night long but I’ll just smile that it went the way it...
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Studying for finals is hard work, and that’s that. Don’t make it harder on yourself by procrastinating, and don’t blame it all on your professor afterward either. While everyone’s mourning about how they’re all going to fail their finals, I’m right on track with all of my studies; I’m confident, because I actually didn’t procrastinate like the rest.
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It’s raining really harshly right now, and I love it. Practically any time I’m inside the house, I wish for as little as a drop to a million drops of rain to come somersaulting on my roof. It’s the sound effects that I hear, could be annoying and depressing to some, but absolute peace to me. All the vibes swished around to sculpt an easygoing, calm self, and even though I’m...
Anonymous asked: What's on your Christmas wish list?
To earn love, you gotta give it. Same goes for respect, patience, empathy, and the list will run on for a while. We’re all coming to the shore of Christmas season, the holidays of giving, and yet, I still see so many shady and greedy people. Maybe for just this time of year, you’d decide to give instead of take.
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When people think of relationships, they automatically think of the perfect boy or girl, perfect high-class romantic dinners with lavish wardrobe every date, acting like the perfect couple in the world at all times, and all that other perfect stuff. Snap out of it already. In real relationships, that boy or girl may have either one or a zillion flaws but you accept every one of them and still see...
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Doing homework while listening to iTunes somehow led to a one-man karaoke session. It’s kinda crazy because for the past 20 minutes I’ve been singing the hell out of my favorite songs, my mother even slapped me on the head and was like “You are such a psycho.” The wind makes me feel so epic, the speakers are really loud, and I feel great. I just let loose and was able to be...
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Sometimes we just want a scapegoat, but there’s no doubt that there are other times where you’ll have to suck up your pride and admit that you’re the one who fucked things up. You can blame your shit on parents, siblings, friends, teachers, acquaintances, pets, random pedestrians, cars, trees, insects, trashcans, plastic bottles, whatever the hell you want just to make your life...
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Anyone can create an online persona and say whatever the hell they wish whether they’re truthful or lying. Let alone the obvious cyber hunters and predators looking for easy targets to feed on, I’m really talking about just the local handful of people, people you might have invested your friendly trust in. Yeah, the possibilities may apply to them, too, for they can deceive you in...
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I understand how you guys would rage about how your parents don’t understand how hard it is being a student in school, but on the contrary, you probably don’t understand how hard it is being a parent. Take a look from the other side of the finger, you might realize something.
November 2011
41 posts
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As much envy and desire you might have stacked on your head, don’t attack someone for being wealthy. You’ll look at their extravagant items and apparel and such and you could think of two possibilities: A, they inherited that stuff or B, they worked hard to get them. Calling them an ungrateful bitch won’t earn you any form of luxury yourself, it just tears you apart in...
Failure doesn’t mean you should stop trying, it just means you should try harder.